Quote of the Day

"Worry looks around. Sorry looks back. Faith looks up. Life looks forward..."

Ready or Not?

Last night we ALMOST got Luke to sleep in his big boy bed. He feel asleep for about 10 minutes but woke back up again. He cried a little bit in between playing. I don't think he gets it just yet. This brings me to my dilemma. Am I pushing him to much? Is he ready? I feel like b/c Luke is the older brother and seems so big compared to Ryan that we end up expecting more from him. I have to remind myself (and others too) that he isn't even 2 years old yet. He still is a baby. People see that we have two kids and don't really realize how close in age both guys are(they are used to the typical 3 year spacing b/w siblings). I started feeling so guilty last night. It brought me back to when I was expecting Ryan and so worried about how Luke would handle the change. It was so strange, on 2/26 Luke was still my baby but on 2/27 when Ryan was born it was like Luke turned into this man child. He looked so big to me and no longer my baby. I get sort of chocked up thinking about it. This fall he starts pre-school. He will be by far the youngest child there. I, once again, am worried I am pushing him. If Ryan were not here I wonder if I would have waited a year? Ugh, I guess this feeling of guilt comes with being a mom. I can't help it. All I want for them is to be as happy as possible and always know that I love them unconditionally. I guess that is all we can really do for our children. I can not protect them from everything but I can sure as heck try to!

play time

The boys have been interacting more and more with each other lately. It melts my heart to see them smile together and laugh. Ba adores Luke and will spend so much time just watching him. Luke isn't as interested in Ryan yet but he likes when Ryan laughs at him.

Right now Ryan in sitting in his bombo chair and Luke is "reading" a book next to him. Every now and then Luke will glance up at Ryan to see if he is paying any attention. Yo Gaba Gaba is of course playing in the background. I'm sort of ashamed to admit this but both Luke and Ryan share in the obsession of Yo Gaba Gaba. They both seriously watch it together and that show has saved me from MANY meltdowns. I have a special place in my heart for DJ Lance Rock :)

Well, this weekend Uncle Chris is in town and we are very excited to see him. This will be Ryan's first time meeting him. We are spending the whole weekend with Grandma and Grand-dad B. It will be lots of fun! We plan on making a trip to the pool and running around in sprinklers :) Cant wait!

summer fun

We had such a nice weekend! The weather is gorgeous. There is very low humidity and nothing but blue skies. The 4 of us walked to a great restaurant here around 4ish and ordered some french fries for Luke and wine for us :) Luke LOVES french fries. He is very into dipping things so when the waiter brought out the fries with 2 different dipping sauces Luke was a happy little man! Ryan sat in my lap while I gave him a bottle and enjoyed looking at the lights. When we got home Luke played in our sprinkler in the backyard. He was in his diaper and freezing but still having the best time.

These are my favorite kinds of weekends. No plans and just the 4 of us. There really is nothing better :)

Race CAR bed

Over the past two weeks we have been trying to get Luke adjusted to his race car bed. It is pretty funny. Luke goes crazy in his room when we shut the door. He runs around the room and throws all his stuffed animals on the bed and then jumps around with them. We haven't made it through the night yet but I hope it will happen soon! Yesterday I had to put him back in his crib when he decided to pay Ryan a visit in his room. Ryan is just starting to sleep through the night so I don't want to do anything to mess that up! At one point last night when I layed next to Luke he put his arms out so I would give him a hug. We snuggled for about 5 minutes until he decided to start jumping again on the bed. I need to hire a sleep trainer to come here and do all this for me :)

4 months!

My sweet Ryan had his 4 month checkup yesterday. Ba is 75th% in height and weight. He has hit all his milestones with flying colors. Ba laughs, coos, engages eye contact, and is a rolling machine! The doctor thinks he may have green eyes. I have to say that both my boys have gorgeous eyes. I take full credit :) Ryan got two vaccinations. I think the most surprising part of the visit was that he didn't cry after each shot. It certainly was not the reaction I was expecting! Tough little man! Perhaps it's just that his thighs are very well padded? :) (Ryan actually has cellulite in his knees! I love it!) The doctor also commented on how much of a sweet and mellow baby he is. I was given the green light to start him on solids but I think I will wait a month or so. He is doing so well now that I don't see the need to start all that mess just yet!

I love my little Ba to pieces. I feel like he has been with us all along and its hard to believe that he was only born 4 months ago. It must feel that way b/c he has always been in my heart right next to his big brother and Daddy.