Ready or Not?

Last night we ALMOST got Luke to sleep in his big boy bed. He feel asleep for about 10 minutes but woke back up again. He cried a little bit in between playing. I don't think he gets it just yet. This brings me to my dilemma. Am I pushing him to much? Is he ready? I feel like b/c Luke is the older brother and seems so big compared to Ryan that we end up expecting more from him. I have to remind myself (and others too) that he isn't even 2 years old yet. He still is a baby. People see that we have two kids and don't really realize how close in age both guys are(they are used to the typical 3 year spacing b/w siblings). I started feeling so guilty last night. It brought me back to when I was expecting Ryan and so worried about how Luke would handle the change. It was so strange, on 2/26 Luke was still my baby but on 2/27 when Ryan was born it was like Luke turned into this man child. He looked so big to me and no longer my baby. I get sort of chocked up thinking about it. This fall he starts pre-school. He will be by far the youngest child there. I, once again, am worried I am pushing him. If Ryan were not here I wonder if I would have waited a year? Ugh, I guess this feeling of guilt comes with being a mom. I can't help it. All I want for them is to be as happy as possible and always know that I love them unconditionally. I guess that is all we can really do for our children. I can not protect them from everything but I can sure as heck try to!